Devastating unfairness is crushing. You feel helpless. You feel worthless. You feel wronged. You feel hurt. Attacked and Harmed. You feel like the world isn’t right if it allows this to happen, and since the world did allow it to happen then you feel like the world isn’t right. You question, you doubt, and you lose trust for the world and its people, things, organizations, places, etc.
You want sympathy. You want love and care and support. You want someone to help make things right. You want compensation for your loss. You want first aid so you can heal. You want healing. You want more than what you lost to make up for the time and emotions lost in addition to the loss itself. You want acknowledgement of what happened. You want a community of people who care about you to acknowledge what happened and prove their care for you through their response to hearing what happened to you.
You want retribution for what happened to you. You want the person or organization or thing that did the harming to face the consequences of their actions. You don’t care what they face as long as they face a consequence. If you are emotional about what happened then you may have specific ideas for what they should face; time will relax your emotions so you can care less about specific outcomes. Ideally you want the perpetrator to acknowledge what happened, apologize, offer to help, take action to help, provide and facilitate the healing process with you, announce their transgression to the rest of the community so that you can feel more secure in the validity of your feelings, your account and perspective and story on what happened, and so you can feel more confident that the community will and does in fact take your side of the situation.
You want to feel protected. You want to feel safe. You want to feel you can trust the world and the people in that world and the people in your world and in your community.
You want a lot of things.
You want. A lot. Of things.
But life is cruel. You will most likely receive more pain on top of the pain you already feel. You will face a world where people won’t listen, won’t help, and tell you to deal with it alone. You will face a world where justice will not be served. You will be uncared for.
You will have to work to rebuild yourself. You will have to make your own repairs. You will have to heal yourself. You will have to eat the loss. You will have to take the setback. You will have to lose. Then, from that loss, start again.
Here’s what I’ve learned from going through the above process repeatedly over my life.
Key life lessons:
The people who hurt you don’t know that they hurt you and they don’t care that they hurt you and they don’t want to do anything to make it up to you.
There is good in the world, not all people are bad, you will meet a lot of bad on your way to the good, but since there are good people to find, make your way to the good.
Get Out and Get Better and Get Away. Staying in pain achieves nothing.
Common reasons for staying in pain are: you can’t help it, you want sympathy and compensation for your loss so you communicate to the world the severity of your pain by staying in pain, you protest against the unfairness of the world by staying in pain. You lose the will to live or continue or you give up. You lose confidence in yourself and you question everything you’re doing so you stop taking action and instead just question all actions. You fall into a trap. You want there to be someone to show you compassion and care and kindness and love in order to redeem mankind and the world to you in your mind. You want someone to change your mind about how life isn’t worth living. You want someone to bring confidence to the actions and steps you’re taking to continue to live in the way you’re choosing to live. You want all these things. You will get none of it from other people.
Lesson: You save you. You are your superman. You are your hero. You are your redeemer.
Here at AttemptedLiving we are working on trying to create a better world. We wish that someday people who face unfairness can get all that they want from the community and people around them. As of 2019, the reality is no-one helps other people anymore. You are on your own. Good luck.