• Be sure to approach this logically.  In the past, I typically approached this with passion, zeal, emotion, and spontaneity–all ingredients that made it exciting, but ineffective and unproductive.  Take the lessons from Life Education‘s Self Improvement section: plan ahead, and make good decisions.  If you’re going to screw the system, be smart about it.  If you aren’t, you hurt yourself more than the system.  Often times in the end, you are weaker, while the system is stronger than ever. This is foolish.  Know when to rebel and when to conform: there is a time and place for effectiveness and impact.  Like in a video game, you don’t attack when the enemy’s armor is up, and you don’t use your weaknesses against the enemy’s strengths.
  • I hate the application process, interview process, evaluation process.
    • Rather than learn to deal with the constraints, I rebel in a way that hurts me more than anything else.
      • I believe it’s about being fake and mis-representing yourself (why I don’t like it), so I over do it, coming off as disingenuous, which they don’t like, and resulting in failure.
      • If they fail to see my talent or potential, I think it’s their stupidity or proof of the stupidity of the whole system, so I
        • Do a horrible job on purpose (spend no time on the application, go to the interview with no preparation)
        • Fail tests on purpose so that on record, my scores are lower than they could be, creating a dichotomy between my actual intelligence and my rated intelligence as a way to prove the inaccuracy of the system: a refusal to participate.
    • What’s actually happening is that I’m putting my worst foot forward, then blaming them for not seeing my best foot.  I’m not making it any easier for them–worsening the problem rather than fixing it.
  • I hate how superficial people are, so I forcefully diminish every superficial aspect of myself
    • I sell myself as unintelligent, unattractive, uninteresting, unsuccessful, and undistinguished.  This way I can judge people’s true colors: you are who you are when you’re dealing with someone who means nothing to you.
  • I hate the disadvantages I suffered as a result of life circumstance
    • I embrace the traits that make me who I am to the detriment of my future success.  Example: I voluntarily chose to not treat my acne because it is the mark of a poor person unable to afford medical care and cosmetics.  I didn’t want wealth to erase my past (same reason Katniss from The Hunger Games refused surgical enhancements).
• The problem with all the above rebellion methods is that I forgot the number 1 rule of protesting: tell everyone, get publicity, and make a lot of noise.  Silent rebellion is stupid rebellion (unless it’s a secret rebellion, which is an exception).  All I did was suffer in silence for nothing: ineffective and unproductive.
• One should also reconsider the fundamental principles upon which he or she is rebelling
  • Are you right? – I used to disrespect teachers because they didn’t agree with me, and I thought I must be right.  However, looking at my writing from just a year ago: I now think it sucks.  Yet at the time of writing, I thought it was publishable.  This experience has taught me how wrong my personal view of myself can be: even if I am completely convinced it’s good, it can still be bad.  My ability to recognize or objectively judge myself is nearly impossible: you can only judge yourself subjectively. So I need to learn to pick the right teacher’s opinions to trust, instead of just ignoring all criticisms and only listening to myself.
  • Is this the right place? – I used to believe all humans deserved to be treated with respect.  Therefore, I could wear whatever I want, and if you treated me badly, you must be a bad person.  However, what I learned from Ballroom Dance is that it was I who was being disrespectful.  When I’m competing, I was told “you want to look presentable, like someone you’d want to invite to a dinner party. You don’t want to give the judges anything that will make them think ‘whoa, what’s that’ because then it’s hard to come back from that. Remember that this is their life, ballroom, so you need to RESPECT their culture.”  Not dressing properly is actually disrespectful to the host! This taught me that I need to pick the right time and place to stage my protests, or else I would just be treating others badly and being the bad person I was judging others to be.

Resources

• How to Fight the Man – NYTimes
• Success Outside the Dress Code – Wall Street Journal report on Harvard Business School report

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Learning how you react to certain situations will help you better predict and prepare for your emotions, and learning about what different emotions do to you will help you decide how to modify your responses to better handle your emotions.  It is important to know that you’re not alone: everyone has emotions, and everyone must find ways to deal with them: that’s part of growing up.

• Commensurate Reaction
  • The strength of your reaction should be proportional to the perceived threat: if there’s a fire alarm and you see smoke, you should react more strongly than if there’s no alarm and no fire. Don’t waste energy, and don’t introduce unnecessary stress and anxiety.
    • From (The Habits You Will Form in Life), you may have learned to react to dogs with fear because the first dog you ever saw tried to bite you.  However, as you learn more about dogs, you will understand that not all dogs will try to bite you, and that the threat of a dog depends on the dog.  As a result, you learn to scale down your fear of dogs.  This same idea can be applied to many other fears or events you overreact to.
  • Put it in perspective: is this a long term or a short term event?  Spilling water once is a short term event, getting braces is a long term event.  Long term events usually matter more than short term events.  However, the impact of the event on your life matters as well: someone spilling water on you once a day for a year isn’t as bad as someone hitting you with a car once.
  • Ask yourself if you can do anything about it, ask yourself whether the window of opportunity to make changes has closed: you can’t change the past, so if it’s too late to do anything to affect the event, all you can do is accept it and manage your reaction so that you can move on.
• Happiness
  • Part of happiness is accepting your present situation.  If you can’t accept your present, then whatever you don’t accept, that will be your barrier to happiness.  For example, let’s say with your current financial situation you have to wait 2 months for something, while you know others only need to wait two days to earn enough for it.  You might believe that if you had another person’s timeline you’d be happier, but that’s not true.  The logic that your mind is using is that “better” is “happier,” but when you get that “better,” you’ll find another “better” that keeps you from being happy again!  Don’t let the fact that there is something better, or someone better, keep you from being happy.  You have all you need to be happy already: all you need is what you already have.
  • The key to maintaining happiness is to know what your happiness triggers are and to set up your life such that you will run into them frequently enough to satisfy you.
    • If you want to formalize it, you can build yourself a happiness investment portfolio.
    • Happiness as an investment strategy: what do you pin your hopes and dreams to? When you add something to your portfolio, ask: Is it sustainable? Is it reliable? What is the risk profile of this happiness investment? 
  • Happiness is a decision and a mindset within your control. I could choose to be stressed out today or I can choose to enjoy the day. Take control and responsibility for your feelings. Don’t let other people create and describe your reality for you.  Don’t let someone else redefine your perspective of your life–don’t let someone else tell you that you aren’t happy, you should shape and decide your own reality and fate.
  • Happiness is knowing what you want, and then getting or doing what you want.
    • The first step is wanting something: if you want nothing, or you don’t know what you want or what makes you happy, you won’t be happy with anything! Happiness is a dot product between what you want and what you get.
    • The second step is taking action: Happiness is achieved by psychologically programming yourself (The Habits You Will Form in Life) to associate an trigger with a response of happiness.
  • Busy Trap: Distracting yourself from your sadness by being busy in order to delude yourself into being happy. This leads people to have mid-life crises when they’ve accomplished a lot in a career that actually didn’t want, but didn’t notice because they were too busy achieving.  Try to make sure you enjoy the activities you busy yourself with.
  • Happiness is not a waste of time and money.  It is crucial to keeping you sane, productive, and of course, happy.
  • Overcome the logic that says you can’t be happy right now: you have work to do so be happy later.  Why not be happy now, and then work happily?
  • Don’t be ashamed or afraid to show your happiness (assuming you’re in a safe place)
  • Happiness comes from within: http://www.toothpastefordinner.com/index.php?date=020613
  • Missing out
    • You are missing out on your own life when you waste it feeling like you’re missing out on other people’s lives.  If you want to do something, make it happen, or do something else.  Don’t waste time doing nothing but wistfully yearning for an alternative life: make your life into the kind of life you want.  Put in the hard work necessary to succeed.
    • Maybe you don’t have to try everything once.  Do you want to know what everything tastes like?  How do you know what the floor of your bathroom tastes like if you don’t do it–at least try it once!  That example breaks the logic of “try it once;” so do what you want to do.  When someone recommends something, take it as a recommendation, not as a need.  Don’t let the existence of another option take away from the happiness you already have.
      • Don’t mistake a need for a want.  Yes, trying new things is necessary to discover what you like, but if you’re happy already, then you don’t need to. Instead, do it because you are interested or excited about the opportunity.
      • If, on the other hand, you are unhappy, then it is necessary for you to try new things in order to find what makes you happy.
      • Religion taught me Happiness is a sin.  To achieve happiness, you must break free of that kind of religion.
      • http://i.imgur.com/Xn42VzN.jpg
      • Morality for me has changed: it used to be the teachings of religion. Now it’s whoever I happen to hang out with; whatever social structure I am a part of.
      • Religion: God hates you, don’t be who you are.
      • Now: Love yourself first
      • Religion: you can’t love yourself, because you’re a sinner and evil, so you should despise and hate yourself as God hates you.
      • What is evil?
      • Religion: Evil is happiness that is acquired through any means other than through God directly. Therefore, manmade things, things of this world, which is controlled by Satan, are all evil and to be avoided. Happiness in this world is temptation which will lead you away from God and into Hell.
• Fear
  • Overcoming
    • As explained in Commensurate Reaction, some of your fears may be overreactions.  If you find yourself saying “I will never __ because __.”  Simulate yourself doing __ and consider what the real harm and possibilities and probability distributions are (See http://attemptedliving.com/2014/02/26/important-life-knowledge/).  Then ask yourself, is it really that bad?
    • If you know that your fear is imagined, then how you take control of it is with courage.  This is demonstrated by this video of a little girl going down ski jump https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebtGRvP3ILg
    • Your imagination and habits will remind you of all the reasons that you have this fear.  Let them go.  What you resist persists.
  • Fear of the Unknown
    • It is very unsettling to not know (see Decision Making: Ambiguity).  As a result, our typical response is to create false realities, because having something to believe in is comforting even if what we believe in is false. However, it is important to recognize the difference between imagination and reality–if it is an imagined fear, then it is not a legitimate fear.  Do research, ask peers, so you can know the truth, and conquer the fear of the unknown.
  • Fear of Happiness
    • For a variety of reasons, some people will target you if you show happiness.  They might have sad lives and want to bring you down to their level, or they might think ethically you should not be happy.  If you grew up or have dealt with people like that, you may have developed a fear of happiness.  However, I have since learned that the persecution I suffered was an isolated occurrence: some people will target you, but there are others who won’t.  Find and spend time with the ones who share your happiness, avoid those who target you.  Be smart about happiness, just like one should be smart about safety.  If there is no threat, then don’t be afraid, don’t hide: have the strength to be happy.
  • Fear of Rejection, Failure, Mistakes
    • Again, as explained in Fear:Overcoming, size up the situation.  If the rejection won’t kill you, and you can handle it, go for it.  This way you explore all your options, instead of filtering and limiting yourself from the get go.  There are enough restrictions in one’s life already, there’s no need to add more of your own if you can help it.
    • Boundaries are constantly changing.  You can only know if they moved if you test the waters.
    • Everyone fails or makes mistakes, and the failures and mistakes never stop coming so long as you live.  The quicker you accept them and as not a big deal, the sooner you can work to improve, as well as learn to deal with them calmly.
    • #PostOnUnderstandingAchievement Everyone starts somewhere.  Jimmy Fallon, 39 years old, 2014 host of The Tonight Show, began at 17 years old: http://www.hulu.com/watch/51240
    • Thomas Kurian EVP of Oracle says “How you deal with failure determines your success”
• Success
  • Don’t let success get to your head and affect your perception of reality: just like failures and mistakes, success comes and goes.
  • Plan for it: What are you going to do after you achieve it?
• Superiority Complex
  • Be Happier by Restraining your Superiority Complex
  • No one subject, occupation, or category is superior to the others.  Titles within a category, like white belt, red belt, black belt martial arts have a superiority order; your manager is superior to you within a company.  However, martial arts cannot be compared with your employer–they are just different, not superior.  Engineering is not superior to music and art, nor is humanities superior than science–they are just different subjects.
• Loneliness
  • Try to go out for honest enjoyment when you’re healthy and fit enough–if you’re tired, you’re in a bad state (http://attemptedliving.com/2014/02/13/how-your-health-affects-conversations/) and you should be resting.  Recover your health, hanging out can wait.
  • Don’t use people to cure your loneliness: You are basically showing up and telling everyone else, entertain me.  Relationships are a give and take, don’t be a leech.
  • Dangerous Cycle
    • When you’re lonely, you tend to put others first because you are feeling low self esteem.  As a result, you take less good care of yourself–you might make too many sacrifices.  This puts you in a weakened physical and mental state that further lowers your self esteem.
  • I tried to solve it by placing myself into as many lives as possible, but eventually I realized that I feel empty and alone not because I’m not in other people’s lives, but because they aren’t in mine. My life is empty of people not because they don’t let me in, but because I don’t let them in.
    • I keep making friends, then moving on to make new ones. Part of this is just life–friends will come and go.  However, you should put in some effort to stick with people you want to.
  • Real loneliness I learned is not just lacking family or friends, it’s not having a network of any kind. To know no-one and have no human connection, wandering the world with nothing but material things: that’s loneliness.
  • Jealousy
  • Don’t increase self worth by increasing jealousy in others (http://attemptedliving.com/2014/02/06/what-is-self-worth/)
  • Why do we want others to be jealous? What’s the advantage? It is purely self-serving, to feel desired and worthwhile; give us worth when we feel worthless.  If you have self worth, you have no need to goad others into being jealous of you–what others think doesn’t matter, you’re already satisfied with how you are because you are secure in what you are.
  • Correcting your source of self worth will allow you to be happy for others without feeling envy or jealousy.
• Mistreatment
  • When things go wrong, or people disrespect me, have the mental health to shrug it off.
  • Minimize the damage by letting it go, rather than holding onto it and prolonging the damage. Avoid bitterness and resentment.
• Depression
  • One way depression happens is when you are not happy about something, but rather than do something about it to fix it, just keep making/letting yourself feel bad about it.  In this way, laziness fuels depression in a vicious cycle of not fixing the problem, so being depressed, so not fixing the problem.
  • Inconsistency promotes depression: going from one extreme to another is unhealthy. If you are sad, so you do lots of happy things and become very happy.  Then stop doing happy things, you’ll drop back to being sad again. Within a day or two, or even within a week, this is fine, but if you go a month being happy, then a month being sad, that’s too extreme.
  • Feeling worthless.  Overcompensating responses like superiority complex.
    • You don’t have to be a jack of all trades to be impressive. Just do what you enjoy.
  • When things go wrong, the mentally healthy response is concern, the sick response is depression or sadness.
• Fight Denial
  • Denial by AttemptedLiving
  • Story to accept reality
    • I tried to keep a plant alive for as long as possible. A peppermint plant I named Pepper.  However, when Pepper began to die due to infrequent watering, I began creating delusional realities about all the different ideal solutions I could have: I could hire a gardener, I could build or buy an automatic watering contraption, or I could just water her every day.  The problem was I imagined all those things, but didn’t do any of them, and so my plant slowly died from lack of water, at which point the near death experience for Pepper my plant cut through delusions and taught me what reality is: It’s in the actions you take, not in the thoughts you make.  So I stopped my idealism and faced the reality I didn’t want to face: need to work hard to save her, and I did.
    • If you had a loved one who had a heart attack, will you ignore it and hope that it will just go away? Or will you call 911 and get a doctor to do something about it. Accept the painful reality, so that you can fix it, or else it will only get worse when you ignore it.
    • Lesson – Actions exist in reality, thoughts only exist within your mind.
      • Hope and theory only go so far, they won’t save the life of the plant without action.  Thinking about calling 911 does nothing: actually calling 911 does.
      • http://attemptedliving.com/2014/01/31/properties-of-reality/
• Venting and Complaining
  • Venting to get over emotions is fine if it’s done safely, without hurting yourself or others.  However, it is important to distinguish between venting and complaining, because complaining is not productive.  Here’s the difference: venting is you have emotions and you need to express it: I want to express how angry, frustrated, unhappy, etc., I am.  That is venting.  Complaining is when you don’t like what you see, have, think, etc.: it’s an expression of how you don’t like something, and a wish for things to be different.  Either make a decision to do something and make a change, or accept the reality: don’t waste time, breath, and energy complaining.
• Anger
  • In life, you will encounter many situations that trigger a variety of emotions. it is impossible to never experience anything that would trigger anger. When Anger is triggered, it is your responsibility to handle it: some people dissipate it, some people bottle it up. You should not bottle it up, but you should also control when and how you dissipate it, so that you don’t harm others, or harm yourself.

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